Journey starts........

After so much of thinking and planning… I think is time for me to take the action and make things happen. But where I need to start with? My goal is to enrich myself in the direction of knowledge and behavior. I need to put in a lot of things into myself and then makeover myself and turn in to a different me. Let’s move now!

The way i like....

Everybody has their own family. However, not all in this world have a wonderful and complete family. I cannot deny that i'm a lucky person in this world as i am in the part of having a perfect family. Although i'm not from a wealthy family background, at least i can have all my members together. I do know that our family is not like others who can enjoy all the time such as enjoy holiday trips, having great parties and big feast, but we have our own treasure moment.

Especially when it comes to the days as i seldom at home now due to the fact that i'm study at other state and as i come back , we will appreciate the moment we stay together more. The moment i like the most is the breakfast time. It is because a nice and happy starts in the morning will make me feel great the whole day. However, this kind of breakfast may also comes in not easy as Sunday or public holiday we will get the chance to have the great breakfast together. So, each time we are having the breakfast together i'm actually really happy from the bottom of my hard and it will let me feel satisfy after enjoying the process. With no others people around just my own dearest family members in a table, i can totally free to chit chat with them and order the foods that we like the most without feeling any uneasy have to suit other's people taste of people. (Most of the time my family members will just follow whatever i want to order and all i have is my favourite food. Haha!)I can talk whatever i want, no matter how rough i am, how no manners infront of my family members and how i behave myself. It need not to care of others and have no worries of being comment by others. It is because all sittng around the table are all my dearest and i have no doubt for them to share whatever it is. Besides that, we can have secret talk in this fine moment where we can talk freely outside and no one will hear what we are sharing. Sometimes we would also talk about secret plan too...hehe..

Although we do not have most of the chance to eat dim sum (consider wealthy level kind of food), we enjoy our curry mee and white coffe in the normal coffee shop. We do not go for Old Town White Coffee kind of concept restaurant as we think it is too high class for breakfast we do like our way of searching new coffee shop near my house area and newly recommended food to taste. My dad really good at searching those newly open shop houses. Thks dad!But sorry to my mum as she is the one who always kena my marah. I am not purposely release my anger towards her but unfortunately she likes us so much and i do admit that i take her treatment for granted. I know she will not scold me back and will not punish me like other's mum did. She will always protect us at the front line and help us whenever she can and no matter what happen or whether she has the ability to do it anot. She will just do it anyway and let no one of us get hurt. However, i scolded her sometimes is mostly for her own good too. It just that i use the wrong way (in people's eyes) to express it. I am not the person like those who will kiss their mum or dad everyday and saying out those "geli" words to them. I will treat them good in my own way but only a bit rude and not respectful. I want them to be good inside my heart. I do not lie in this. No worry mum and dad !Hahaha...

Next important step....

Continue with my words last post…What is my inner and external strength? What I should do to improve it and where I need to start it? Good question for the opening. First of all I know that I am not a brilliant person or the hardworking type. That means no high IQ and EQ in the beginning. But in the positive way of thinking, there is nothing is impossible here. People who have low standard will still have the way to survive. It just needs to find the right way which suits them the best to move forward.
In my case, I need to be clear of what I need to be on the track to successful. Knowledge is the most most most important! It is greatly true to me as knowledge will guide you to the correct way and not just simply mini minni mo to choose a solution. Then, I need to change my behavior in order to put myself into what is happening around the world now. No one will totally live in their own way 100% but to give away at least some percent to the environment to make then feel they are inside the world. So, let get started with this two big issue here! KNOWLEDGE & BEHAVIOUR!! Like it!
Knowledge….What is that to me? What kind of knowledge I need? Where I can get it and is that useful for me? All these questions just suddenly pop up into my mind when I type the questions above. Well…I do have some answer here or inside my heart there is always a certain answers which is clear enough for me. In order to make my future a better one, of course I need to have something which is related and helpful to me. Increase my EQ level by putting in some IQ. So, I would like to have something that can encourage me to move forward and be in front of others when I have reach my time to really compete with other people. I do need some reading. Read a book is the best and direct way to gain knowledge. It is because you do not have to filter it much when you read it to get the essence. Words and contents inside the book is use to let people get the vitamins directly just like you eat the supplement in the form of pills and not raw fresh fruits from the market as you need to wash it and cook it before you eat and digest and only absorb the nutrient. All the thinking process when you read up a book is just to make sure that you arrange the essence from it well and plan to apply it in a suitable correct way and time. However, since I am not an high intelligence people, I need to choose a book that I can understand it well and able to absorb the essence from it. Besides that, as I am also a Gemini, I need something which is not boring and colorful content to keep me reading it until the end. It is not a hard problem to choose a book because there are too many books out there. I just found out recently that there are many online book selling webpage where their price is much more cheaper than the stores. May be some of them are pirated but we just want the knowledge, it doesn’t matter how I get it as long as I’m not stealing from somewhere else. Just be a bit budgeted as a student like me. Pirated is not totally wrong but can help people like me in some way. I like books which are in story form and not facts. Books from the person’s diary especially will make me feel good to read it. But of course not the philosophy type. It is more towards their incidents writing or journey story line. I like to learn from other people story about how they go through the hard times or experience the same thing as me before when it reach a certain age time and what they conclude about it. I will feel more sincere and comfortable with it as it really bring me to what I should learn and how to react in order to get the best solution or get something in return. After getting the IQ from books then indirectly will fill up my EQ too. Coz I have know more and will not simply judge everything with my limited knowledge inside my brain.
Next…come to the behavior part. This will be the most challenging one for me as you cant change one’s behavior easily. What more the biggest enemy is myself! I know myself well and I do admit that I am not a so easy change person. I will not easily listen to other’s people view and is hard for me to accept something new when I already has a concept in my mind before hand. Once I think the others is not correct (in my opinion) I will just node my head, smile a bit and then just pass it by. If the person is whom I dislike some more I will even show my ugly facial expression after I have turned my back to him or her. So sorry to say that my EQ is really a not good one. Some people is not good in their study or job but at least they are a nice people so they will still be acceptable by everyone and can stand quite firmly (is just quite) in the public. After a long consideration for who I am, I feel that patient is important to me. I need to wait for my day to come and not to fake myself. Fake myself to be rich, fake myself to be high intelligence will not make me go further and happy. It is just a temporary happiness and the to feel the eager. But when you thinking for a longer while you can notice that you will not get anything from it but just losing out a lot of money and time. And if you do not handle it well you will get a bad impression from others. So, why I need to waste time in doing something not beneficial? I have not much time to prepare myself now and I do not want to waste any resources I have now too. My time, money and status are precious to me now. I’m older, no money and still have limited freedom. I cannot afford to loose anyone of them when I am still in the process of equipping myself to ready for a real world and no turn back. I do not want to be an old child going for kinder garden when I am out to work next time. I want to be like the child of standard 6 when I am in standard 1. Then only I have the chance to get what I want in future. My goal is to earn more money, be famous in a healthy image and nobody will look down at me most importantly. Thus, let’s start with patience and be fake a bit to face people who “teaching” me the lessons of growing up. I need to thank them one day.

Feeling Always...

Frankly speaking, i feel i'm lucky here. It is because there is not much or even a single people know that i have a blog here. Many people nowadays uses blog to publish their words or commercialize themselves. They may take this opporunity to be popular and earn money. But for me, it is a very useful tool that i consider it as my secret place to express my feelings and tell secret. Secret means nobody will know it right? So, if nobody can find my blog here then it will always be safe to write whatever i want to. Luckily i still have my little space here to breath...
Well, it has passed the big half year of 2010. What i have done so far is still not clear yet. Many feelings this year and passes by many incidents. Happy ones and unhappy ones. But one think i still feel not satisfy is that i do not think i'm growing up enough after going through all that. My EQ is still low and my IQ do not push me to a higher level too. Meaning my acheivement is still little or not even reach a single.
Lately, i keep on reminding myself to improve. No matter is my IQ or EQ. Especially when i'm in the holiday period. I use to tell myself to do something beneficial during the time until everybody will find that you have improve in some way after some time. Just like the case that we go for a haircut in the saloon. You will expect that after some makeover with your hairstyle, you will look like a totally different people and feel fresh. Then only it will consider the haircut is worth it and no regret of making the decision to cut off the hair. The reason why i use to have this thought is mostly because i have found myself in no improvement so far in my life. I admit that i always jealous and feel envy towards all my friends around me. Ya, is all of them. I was jealous with their life. They have a very interesting and enjoyable life. Especially those who are in the same age as me. For those who are far older than me will depend on what is their case. May be you will think that i'm only able to see the positive and cheerful side of my friends. But, i know myself very well. Even they are having their hard times i will still have the feelings of envy and jealous. Why? It is the because although they were not happy , things may not stand by their side, they will still have at least one or two people to accompany them, to console them and to make them feel a bit better at least. But for me, there is none. Really a zero for that.
May be i do not have a boy friend now or i'm poor in social status. Although i have my good and trusted friend, it just that i will never have such a lucky ending or story line in my life. I always feel that i'm alone and nobody can understand and help me out with it. In this matter, i do confess i am also quite a sturbbon human as i will not easy to receive any advice from others besides that you are really influencing. Sounds hard ya... Looking at all the cases and people around me, having different feelings and taste of life...Actually i know where i'm standing now. Most people is enjoying and i'm suffering... I understand why. It just that i use to fake myself to be one of them and get myself in trouble in return. I know that it is not yet the right time to be like them and i need to be patient. However, as time flies, it keeps reminding me that i do not have much time to waste. My age is getting older and older and there is no U-turn for it. For example, i really feel sad and pain in my heart when it has came to my birthday every year. May be i should not be too demanding as i do not have the right to demand. But i still hope for a nice birthday celebration every year. 21st years old... How you celebrated it last time? Let me tell you mine...I do not have a cake and i almost lost the chance to make a wish either. 22nd? Same thing happen... the years before that were all the same.. It is just a day moment and once in a year time to make me feel like others and yet i do not have a chance. May be i'm not good in relationship matter, no friends to make this happen to me and what more to have a boy friend! I am not wanting a boy friend here but it just that it is a very good example to show that there is at leats someone to do it for you. In my case, really none. Speaking to almost the end here, there is no more point to give other example of life that i do not own.
That the reason i keep on telling that i know who i am and where i'm standing now. Just like poor guy will not in a rich enviroment. If you try to pretend as one of them, you will only get hurt in the end. And i have it all the time.
I do not want to claim myself as it is a fate for me but i just thibk that it has not reached my turn yet. I still need to wait. In the meanwhile i'm waiting, i need to enrich and improve myself in all angles. From the inside to the outside and from the top until the bottom. I need to add in alot in order to make things change. I also believe that when i have fill up enough for certain level i will get to that part. It is just a simple theory like the computer games we use to play. Get the points and up a grade you go.
Now, there are 2 important question poping up. First, when i will get there? Second, what i need to fill myself up? The first question is always a must question but i choose to keep it at this moment. The second will be a critical one as it is a path to pave my way there. In other words, what i need to do now? Do i need to be pretty or earn more money? haha...
The blind will know the answer. My inner and external strenght need to be strong enough. It is to build up my confident by not letting people to look down at me. I really hate the feeling of being look down. Especially those who think they are better and have more power to speak up. In my opinion, they are just empty vessels who make the most noise. If you are good you need not to tell the whole world or try to make the people around you to feel it. You should keep it down and not high and help others to be part of you. If you are not willing to do it then you are a loser and coward anyway. It is because you are not brave to teach others and afraid to face the challenge back. You are not a winner! So, do not try to speak so loud as you will only get hated by all.
Therefore, my next feeling chat will be discussing how to improve my inner and external strenght? or what i want and plan to do? What are my obstacles now? There are still more to write here.......

Facebook????

Lately, I have found that many of my friends keep asking me the same question…-How are you lately?- Then I will answer them back that I am fine or as usual…but they will give an answer by asking how???It is most probably they cannot visualize my face or my action when I’m answering their question…So, at this moment I will tell them to look at my facebook wall…it is true! I have found out that facebook can never be denied that it is a very powerful tool to connect and social..

Frankly speaking I do not have any social account before facebook…it was my first time of using this kind of online application…Perhaps I’m a bit outdated but it is never too late to start one..haha…why am I suddenly so ‘interested’ in talking about facebook is because that I have gain a lot from this website..i do not know what other people think about it but for me, it is a very useful platform for me to find friends and share information..friends that I have missed them so much since primary school have now been connected and it was in the rising…I mean getting more and more of them back to connection..besides that, I’ve met a lot of new friends from different level…level means that they are young ones and senior of mine…can u imagine that you are now one of the friends of XXX CEO so easily before u have a facebook account??

Nowadays, you just have to have others e-mail add and u can get them to connect in facebook… from there you may know them more by looking at their profile and latest update.. .of course you may get approach by other people as well ..However, I will not simply approve those who added me as their friend, it is part of safety purpose…it is because everything has their bad part behind it, including facebook..many users are complaining that facebook is too much in exposing their privacy…so we need to be alert and do not misuse the true function of facebook…
There are more which is very interesting in facebook…which are the games and quizzes… well, they are fun to play and testing…but I do realize something which is not so good..many of my friends have addicted to these games and quizzes..they like to play with it every day until they ignore their own profile and wall…aren’t the main purpose of facebook is to social networking? Although game is an added value, I still think that we should fully utilized what the facebook has provided us…and not to hit the score in games…Quizes also are part of I think which is not healthy where the questions are sounded too over…(you will understand more when you go and search for it) don’t you all think that it will affect the young’s mind???coz there is no age limit in this website....I do not know how many of you will agree with me but it is all true…

Finally, facebook is a ‘multipurpose’ connection tool as I like to call, where people can connect, chat, advertise, search ,play and share in just one site. It is a wonderful thing in life and in this digital era. So, appreciate it and I hope that it will help more and more people to connect without spending a single sen.(excluding the online fees and electricity charge)
NOW EVERYONE CAN CONNECT!!! BY jb YEE

Youth Enterpreneur Workshop

YEW or known as Youth Enterpreneur Workshop was my very first project of being a Pengarah.This was held in Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Jitra,Kedah on the 27th Jun 2009.